cee

2011-01-22T01:42:00.002+08:00

sometimes i like you

sometimes i don't

sometimes i'll miss you

sometimes i won't

me, yesterday

2011-01-22T01:41:00.000+08:00

too bad

too sad

too late

to date

2010-07-25T20:44:00.002+08:00

sent chills up my spine

because everyone thought i was dead
and the boy i love thought i was dead
and there was no way of telling him that i wasnt
then finally i met him and then he knew
we drove around in his car and...
oh i love him so

2010-06-23T17:03:00.003+08:00

one day older than yesterday and im another year older.

Welcome to the first day of my Eighteenth year.

2010-06-05T00:43:00.001+08:00

somebody's boyfriend (i.e. mine) just realised that we forgot to celebrate our anniversary last month. but nevermind. HAHA

2010-06-02T21:43:00.002+08:00

Falling out of love is a funny thing

especially when you've been in love for ages and ages
and then you seemingly suddenly fall out of it. i wonder how that happens.
do you just reach a point where you fall off the cliff? or do you fall out of it gradually, like how you outgrow your clothes? can you outgrow a love? when love turns to hate, does that love ever, or have a chance to, turn back to love again?

it is hard harboring a secret when you have friends. it is even harder to know that you have friends and a secret you can't share with these people you call your friends. then again, i wouldn't say this necessarily constitutes a secret, but if you don't tell anyone about it then does that make it a secret? what if you simply have no one to tell? then does that make your 'secret' an unwanted secret?

people seem to fall out of our lives like falling stars - you make a wish on them and you never see them again. hopes are false and false hopes are false hopes

goodbye forever.

2010-05-31T01:18:00.002+08:00

now that i think about it, we were actually in a relationship (albeit a slightly dysfunctional, slightly screwed up one) at the time, just that neither of us realised. and i actually miss that. i miss you for all the things i ever wrote about you, i miss what we had. im not saying what we had was special, what we had was, really, ridiculous (or beyond ridiculous). its just that i never realised, what we had is what ive always wanted. i miss the ridiculousity of being the overly cliche couple as occasionally as we liked. and although i never realised, it wasnt you who always needed me, it was the other way around, as i realise now. sure you were the one who was after me, but i was the one who made the calls, you never did. i know i've been more than mean, i've stabbed you a million times in the front, in full sight, and stabbed you in the heart a million times more. and i have nothing to say in my defense.

to any one out there: please promise me if i try and break up with you and ruin what we have, that you won't let me and you won't let me go.

love doesn't hurt, it's not having it that hurts.

(somewhere through this post i found myself writing in present tense. hm. im not sure that was entirely appropriate although it is entirely possible.)

2010-05-31T01:02:00.001+08:00

lonely nights
stars are bright
missing you
when you aren't in sight

2010-05-24T22:56:00.004+08:00

today,
i did something super coolfunnycrazyawesome.

me and gerald laughed and giggled like mad and tried photocopying our faces at the school copier. of course we failed because, idk, it just isnt that easy. we were acting like primary school kids, laughing and trying not to scream with laughter and giggling and trying to be inconspicuous and making sure no one saw us while we carried out our superawesome master plan. i havent done something so crazyfunny in a long while.

anyway, we are gonna try again soonish because i really want a photocopy of my face.

2010-05-24T22:43:00.001+08:00

i look at all these people and think, if i'd known you a year ago, i would never, ever, ever have...
nevermind.

but yeah.

2010-05-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

because life is like this - when you throw out one emotion, you get hit by a hundred back

2010-05-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

woah fake smiles all round

2010-05-06T23:36:00.003+08:00

i cant believe i have to go to school with these !!*"£gwegr£&kvngff6dt&kjvlnvdf&£@!*£! people

yeah, its this complex that i have..

2010-05-04T02:41:00.003+08:00

e is an entity i have not blogged about for a really
really
long time, in fact, maybe even eons. now e is everything i ever imagined, even wondered, of how i might ever look at someone and think, i used so be close to so-and-so, but now i hardly know him at all. and it is scary, considering how when i say close, i mean really really close, like banter buddies, pulling punches, hanging out all the time, being telepathic and knowing that he'd be there for me no matter what.

the other day i realised someone, whom i got to know recently, knew e.
me: how do you know e?
someone: oh we were friends from xxx. he's very studious. why?
me: oh he's... nothing. i know him too.

it was kinda weird 'cause i couldnt say 'oh he's my best friend'.

2010-05-04T02:40:00.001+08:00

you know you have truly regressed when all you talk about is how you have regressed

2010-05-04T02:10:00.002+08:00

chiseled face
sculpted cheek bones
defined jawline
don't you want to know
what i think of you

yes, my writing has regressed, for sure. i haven't been thinking of anything at all, and i've been thinking about nothing in particular. im not sure i will ever be able to bring it back up, especially in the near future. life is a blur which i pass through, the only thing i see is you. because you are a constant, a saving grace. without you... i wouldnt like to think of that, but if it was, life would just be

im not going to finish this. and life would just be like that.

2010-04-29T22:33:00.006+08:00

This Morning with J and Rantaboutmyspazzbf

This morning-

student leader: please proceed to the quadrangle for morning assembly
j and me: okay

we continue to sit there anyway.

five minutes later,

another sl: please proceed to the quadrangle for morning assembly
j: yeah okay. sorry, her(points to me) leg is numb right now, we'll be going soon.
sl: (nods and walks away)
me: (laughing) O-M-G sometimes i hate you so much j. my leg is numb? seriously!?

at this point we get up towards the quadrangle anyway, so much for 'her leg is numb'.

me: you must really be the worst boyfriend ever, what kind of boyfriend constantly uses his girlfriend as an excuse?
me: plus they're all fake excuses!!
j: whatttt, it isn't every time! (he laughs, because it is almost every time and he knows it!)
j: but anyway don't worry there's more to come hahaha
me: omgzzzzz T.T

he's always speaking for me and saying the stupidest things ever - Major SIHYSMJ (Sometimes I Hate You So Much, J) moments. AND he is the best at giving me stupid advice.

(text messaging in class)

me: oh shit i am sleepy ):
j: slap yourself damn hard! then scream! hahaha
me: haha omg shut up!!! this is a typical sihysmj moment.
j: oh new acronym now?

-

me: ... yeah you're so lucky you're getting off school soon!
j: i know! haha
me: thanks a lot T.T (great load of help you are!)

all this (and more!) happened in one day, he is that full of rubbish.
but i like him anyway (:

2010-04-28T17:23:00.002+08:00

Haiku for My First Day Back
gerald dropped a bomb
today, on my first day back.
i couldn't stop laugh-
ing. we bitched for an hour or
so till lecture. then
we bitched some more and had some
laughs at cav. hooray.

i put a bomb in your fire you say oh-oh, oh-oh

2010-04-28T17:13:00.002+08:00

yes, no, maybe so.
but what i really want to
hear is sure/why not.

(and i really want to sleep now, but.)

2010-04-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

haiku because it was raining
Rain, the sky's mourning
Thunder and teardrops falling
Washing you away

- CK Wong

2010-04-17T13:59:00.000+08:00

i think i had something to do tomorrow but i forgot

2010-04-16T00:21:00.001+08:00

im so tired i don't wanna do my π ):

2010-04-14T03:44:00.003+08:00

i realised i hardly write anything anymore. i feel so devoid, so empty, unfilled. i don't think anymore, i just do. i dont have coherent thoughts, im lucky if i even have any thoughts at all. life is passing me by. my sentences are short. i hardly ever have strings of thoughts, they're more like flashes, really. and if im fortunate i catch those flashes, sometimes i don't. i feel terrible. i am uninspired. i like my older posts better, at least they had substance. this is the closest that i have come in a long time to harnessing my thoughts in a piece of writing. i don't even want to read my own writing. i am bored by it. nothing interesting to be read. in fact, nothing to be read at all. i might as well be running a twitter page here (hello to all my one-liners).

2010-04-14T01:21:00.001+08:00

days of eternal eyebags
): ): ):

2010-04-12T01:18:00.001+08:00

freakazoids

2010-04-12T00:08:00.003+08:00

playing with fire
sticking your finger
in too many pies
emotional promiscuity
empty inside

2010-04-08T00:52:00.002+08:00

i don't know whether to hate you or not. and you know i won't love you unless you love me back cause im narcissistic like that.

2010-04-08T00:50:00.001+08:00

sometimes you wonder, if we are too old to be playing games.
and I wonder if we ever stop playing games.

2010-04-07T12:37:00.002+08:00

z: what do you love me for?
g: for real

2010-04-06T01:59:00.001+08:00

eejit weejits
this is stupid

2010-04-06T01:44:00.002+08:00

i do wonder how it happens, but then again i did come close to it myself. that was scary cause i'd never felt anything like it, ever; and i never thought i would come close to doing anything like it, ever. never thought i was the kind, but then i guess it goes to show - you never know.

i still wonder how it happens, because i could never let things get to that stage.

2010-04-06T01:32:00.001+08:00

because i just wanna be.

2010-04-05T22:28:00.003+08:00

"today, we learn that people who have no time for anything else have time to trawl facebook nevertheless."

comment très vrai!

2010-04-05T21:27:00.002+08:00

deciding who to vote for is annoying
most of them have faces i would like to kick!
this is quite a fâcheuse predicament and is wasting my time

2010-04-05T20:56:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i have to vote for a shload of other people whom i either do not know or do not want to vote for, just so that my vote for my friend will count. combien ridicule! there really aren't that many people that i don't not want to vote for. the worst thing is knowing that your vote doesn't really count because 90% of said people will get in anyway, which makes the entire campaign very much inutile.

bien dérisoire!

2010-04-05T19:11:00.001+08:00

too much of everything. i need to reorganize or im never going to get anything done. i feel confused being in my own room. ):

2010-04-05T01:13:00.002+08:00

on a completely different tangent,
j and i finally decided on an 'official' date (hahaha)
so we can officially celebrate it this month
(:

2010-04-05T01:12:00.001+08:00

la vie, oh l'ennui!

2010-04-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

times like now,
things make sense
i finally feel at peace
like coming full circle
its time to come back
home

2010-04-05T00:28:00.003+08:00

life is droll
it drones on and on
i live for weekends
i live for sleep
in the mornings, i live for when i get in his dad's car so i can fall back to sleep
role reversal, now he's the one who wakes me up when we get to school

short term goals, they keep me alive

2010-04-05T00:25:00.001+08:00

Friday After Noon

this afternoon with the boyfriend. its super lame so i just had to document it. i applaud you if you read through the entire thing.

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i need to figure out how to put a cut on this post, because it looks terribly ugly and takes up a shload of space. that will prolly be next weekend though. so till then, hold your horses :>

x

2010-04-02T16:27:00.002+08:00

Today, Grace wants You to know that:
That thing you wrote on your facebook status? Utter Rubbish. I'm pretty sure doing what you did would not evoke such emotions 'cause hey, you prolly dont remember half, or more, of what you claim to. And familiar scent? Seriously? Methinks the whole thing was just a less conspicuous way of announcing to the whole world (yours, anyway) what you did yesterday (:

2010-03-31T22:54:00.002+08:00

kimchi
you should have
some, though you dont feel like
having any

2010-03-31T22:16:00.004+08:00

"shit, i have a lot of leg muscle.
i don't want to have so much muscle.
maybe if i stick with you more my muscles will transfer to you!
like... like teleporting!
maybe my leg muscles will teleport to you."

- conversation with self (and j on the side)

2010-03-31T22:14:00.001+08:00

10 and struggling to stay awake
we are lousy

2010-03-31T21:50:00.001+08:00

my posts are more degenerate than ever
this is terrible

2010-03-31T21:23:00.006+08:00

Something Crazy

was in the library while gfok and z went to look for food. on the way, they met c and s.

c and s: heyy whatchall doing?
gf and z: having sex.

LMAO.

-

in the library...

(after they told me about what happened with c and s)
gfok: so do yall have sex often?
g: sure, all the time.
z: yeah us too.
gf: ehhh dont say so loud! im still underage you know!
g: yeah you could go to jail for statutory rape!
z: eh
z: but the legal age is 16. you're legal already.
g: oh yeahhh, its 16 not 18
gf: oh shit! i wasted 1 year and 2 days already! z! quick we need to plan - to make up for all my lost timeeeeee!

-

we are the shizzzz man
esp since now there are two, its insanity

2010-03-30T20:56:00.002+08:00

sj: why're you j's boyfriend?
sj: are you really j's boyfriend?
sj: why're you pretending to be j's boyfriend??
G: i'm not j's boyfriend!
sj: then! why're you pretending to be his boyfriend!
G: i'm his girlfriend.

HAHAHAHA.

2010-03-27T20:21:00.001+08:00

i hardly agree with any of this season's trends (much less the interpretations of them), but man, do i agree with Christian Louboutin.

2010-03-27T00:44:00.005+08:00

tried to learn how to wolf-whistle from a guy on youtube with gerald, cav, clarence and sem.
FAIL

only gerald actually had some semblance of whistle going on :o cav was jealous
but it was kinda gross for the most part + none of us (save gerald) had any kinds of proper sound(s) coming out hahaha

imagine five spazzes at one table with two fingers in their mouths, blowing and spitting saliva.
ew.

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oh and i vidded john smith and gerald doing the hoedown throwdown.
cool shiz :D be up on fb soonish, its on cav's iphone

2010-03-27T00:23:00.005+08:00

We Real Cool by Gwendolyn Brooks


THE POOL PLAYERS.
SEVEN AT THE GOLDEN SHOVEL.

We real cool. We
Left school. We

Lurk late. We
Strike straight. We

Sing sin. We
Thin gin. We

Jazz June. We
Die soon.





super cool poem

2010-03-25T22:11:00.001+08:00

i wonder where they went
nap time.

2010-03-25T22:01:00.003+08:00

weird form of self-indulgence
like peeling a layer off
it reveals something on the inside you wouldn't guess was there
disparity from what you think to be reality

happens all the time and its kinda funny, to be honest

xxx

ps: im sorry, when we talk again, i'll tell you i was sorry. and you know that i never am.

2010-03-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

cabbed to school this morning, as predicted
jt is the terriblest, really
>:)

this morning went something like that
j: huan gossssshhhhh i am so sleepy i feel like cabbingggg...
g: me too i dont even want to go to school ):
j: feel like eating macs breakfast and going home to sleep
g: dont tempt meeee ): so do you want me to walk to your house then we cab?
j: im going to the mrt already. sore throat. shit.
g: okay coming out now dont die yet
-
so yeah, we took the train to school this morning
FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER
i just realised. i have never. ever. taken the train to school. ever.
PWNX
-
so we reach our stop, and j's like
"eh im damn sleepy lets just cab to school from here"
from the train station (!!!)
i sed okay anyway because i was lazy too :D
and i have never ever walked to school in the morning. ever. HAHA
thank goodness we dont have to travel to school ourselves or this would be a daily situation

and we'd both be broke
T.T

alrighty thats all thats interesting for today <:
shit i think imma fall sick ):

2010-03-24T00:33:00.003+08:00

i have officially not slept for 24 hours woohoo my face hates me now
but i had a power nap during math hahah oh well but i dont think that counts for much
my face is angry with me now >:( you can see the red marks that only hours of sleep can repair
my sleep debt is now a massive giant

cabbed to ph today for no apparent reason other than the fact that we were lazy
cost us five bucks apiece because of peak hour when it'd be 5 between us danggg
and knowing us, we'll prolly be cabbing to school tomorrah T.T
on the bright side, cheetham was there today despite his concussion <:
tall and gangly as ever. in fact, maybe taller. he's taller than j now, which is woah
and a full head taller than me which is woah woah woah especially since he used to be shorter than me (T.T)

just realised that i am low on fuel(kimchi)
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
so i im-ed A to ask him to please please make some more because i really need it

and now i really need to do my homework

2010-03-23T01:37:00.003+08:00

studying makes me giddy
first day of the week and i am ready to fling my hands in the air and run away screaming.
sounds like a plan <:

no sleep tonight
watch this space

2010-03-23T01:32:00.001+08:00

pa-ra-noi-a

and so all the self-destructive shit is starting to surface
hmmhmmhmm
this ought to be interesting, non?

2010-03-23T01:29:00.001+08:00

because
because
because
cccccynic

i hate studying
be back inawhile
watch this space

2010-03-20T01:23:00.001+08:00

ikr and i hope we're not talking about the same person

2010-03-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

on a lighter note, that was some party last night <:

2010-03-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

_,

i wish you'd see this, but you dont know this space exists.
i dreamt of you last night. it reminded me that i miss you.
trying to ignore you is tough. i wish you'd stop ignoring me.

xxx

2010-03-17T22:34:00.001+08:00

haiku for the year
eighteen, you
think you're getting old
you worry

2010-03-13T15:20:00.001+08:00

ṡεṃ says:
my arms and legs are like mj from the 70's and my body is like mj b4 death O.O

2010-03-08T01:57:00.002+08:00

i've been dreaming these few days
and they havent been good ones
every time i sleep, i dream
maybe that's why im so tired
i dreamt again this afternoon
a long one, just like last night
and i know it was scary
i just dont remember what
but it was running away from
and stuff like that, you know
i dont know why though
maybe its because im afraid
it was a weird dream, it
consisted of stuff i have thought
about before. but way more
fairytale-d and fictional
i dont know, but i know it
has something to do with
you.

2010-03-08T01:52:00.003+08:00

because you need to ask yourself if you are in love, or in love with love itself.

and i know i am neither

2010-03-06T22:24:00.001+08:00

emotional air fairy

2010-03-01T23:59:00.001+08:00

i think your a hypocrite. not that you need to know.

2010-03-01T01:06:00.001+08:00

"i thought you'd reached your maximum capacity of stupid actions already." well, apparently not. good night world <:

2010-02-14T20:41:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's day everyone, including those of you who are stalking me (coughcoughgregangcoughcough) :>

2010-02-07T02:31:00.002+08:00

so now I have two bfs who... hmmm. I feel like pffsssh. awesome so I see this is gonna turn out just great.

2010-02-07T01:56:00.002+08:00

friday night rocking out to taylor swift and the jonas brothers - kinda sorta gay hahaha

2010-02-03T22:20:00.001+08:00

b-b-b-bennie and the jetssss

2010-02-03T20:54:00.004+08:00

Today(and the past few) With JT:

forever and ever. amen.

forever and ever and ever and ever. amen, amen, amen.

club 24

chan mali chan

hole in the ozone layer right above our school

maybe the sun rises from our school?

petition for discrimination against fat people (size 26!)

insider jokes all the way

2010-02-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

chevron, soup spoon, peanut butter chocolate banana milkshake (woohoo)
<:

perfect recipe for diarrhoea hoho

2010-01-29T17:48:00.001+08:00

mass dance = shitttttttttt

2010-01-27T15:50:00.001+08:00

funny how they only seem to regress, never really growing up

2010-01-25T12:49:00.003+08:00

The Pig of Happiness

2010-01-25T12:18:00.001+08:00

2010-01-20T13:35:00.003+08:00

Want

Dinosaur Necklace by Tatty Devine
£114 and Out of Stock

>:

2010-01-20T00:14:00.001+08:00

I Need to Stop Shopping

because i am (really) broke
>:
>: >:
>: >: >:
>: >: >: >:

sucks

2010-01-19T16:13:00.001+08:00

(the root of) incessant worry

2010-01-15T01:54:00.003+08:00

omg

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want!!!!!!!
omgomgomgomgomg
(hyperventilates)

anyone wants to buy them for me? actually, scratch that, i know im gonna get it for myself anyway. no way am i passing that up!

!

2010-01-13T15:37:00.002+08:00

i recently decided that i have too many black shoes. as in shoes that are black.
so to even it out, i end up buying more shoes in grey, beige and nude(so i havent found any nude ones, but i want to). which basically means that i end up buying more shoes. ah. i realised yesterday that i probably have more shoes than than all the shoes that my entire family owns put together. okay nevermind.

2010-01-12T13:13:00.001+08:00

mtb?

i dont think so

2010-01-11T13:00:00.009+08:00

Fvrt Game

oh yeah

2010-01-11T12:05:00.004+08:00

Just Dream

feeling a little off the charts now since i had a terrible achy night and the remnents of three dreams still in my head. three dreams, three different people, r, k and m (none of which you would know).

r, the first dream, i dont remember what happened but anyway we were real close and talking about our lives(theyre real different) thats about all i can recollect. oh and something like we were at some event thingum and then we left together and promised to keep in touch. slightly weird because i havent been in contact with r for ages.

the second dream, i dont remember anything either, now. i just remember i dreamt about something with k in it.

the last dream i had, and the most poignant one, probably because it was the last, and maybe because of m. definitely havent seen m in awhile, so is funny how m pops up in my dream. starts with something like me and r(another one) at somerset mrt (i just recognize the insides) and r's telling me about this vora vora thingum (dont even ask) that i should go to. somehow m is there, and r leaves on the train, so i ask m about this vora vora thing and m's going to it so i tag along. pretty boring story anyway. and stuff (that im not about to discuss here) conspire. we reach vora vora event, and m takes off with friends. i bump into a there, who is with alleged bf. so apparently vora vora is this huge anime-ish event that is shiz freaky. haha. anyway the dream doesnt make sense now that ive explained it. and it seems more like a (dumb) reason to have m in my (subconscious, anyway) thoughts.

oh and did i mention that somewhere in the last dream i found the space to put in a job application at art friend (fully knowing that i have only a week till school starts).

okay end of bad storytelling skills. i hated writing this but i just had to, for the record.

2010-01-08T02:37:00.003+08:00

Broke

I am officially <-> this close to brokeness omg broke broke broke i hate it.

i wanted to get the topshop heels(yes, despite near brokeness) but they didnt fit nicely so i decided not to. bags, oh bags, i was trying to decide between function and frivolity. in the end i ditched both and forgot about buying a bag (ha ha).

met a pair of sparkly red sneakers(imagine my immense delight upon meeting them!), and was ecstatic that they had them in my size. was so esctatic that i went on to purchase them (because at least they're functional, besides being frivolous, so i could justify buying them).

met a nice guy who helped me with my sneakers.

met with lovely velvety mushroom stroganoff.

met with the imminent end of my shopping trip

2010-01-06T16:28:00.005+08:00

Looky Look

source:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Camilla_Belle

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bet it'll be edited off soon enough, ha ha.

2009-10-24T00:35:00.002+08:00

now i remember why i decided to be non-committal
well, a bit too late

not anti-committal, just non-committal

2009-10-23T20:41:00.000+08:00

Mario Kart Love Song is pure geniusness

2009-10-23T19:05:00.003+08:00

bmiml (bad moment in my life)

tried to sleep, for half an hour-ish but couldnt
>:
woke up, realised i have to work tmr, mild panic, tried calling e whose phone wasnt on. or something. called someone else, in an attempt to escape from world, but he was going far far away.
:
wanted to take some shots, couldnt find my cam
>:
sister playing the piano, very loudly, such a pain. can not stand listening to the piano playing, unlike certain people who find it soothing and therapeutic. it is not. it is thoroughly annoying.
>: >: >:
was gonna take some shots with my popcam when am disrupted by mom
>:>:
nagging ensues, about taking dinner, etc etc. my stomach only has space for approximately 1-1.5 meal(s) every 12hours, which means about 1ish meal a day, unless i stay up inordinately late. or unless i am working because that makes me hungry. but usually i am still stuck with settling for 1-1.5 meal(s) due to time constraints.
>:>:>:

mom is unexpectedly home, so unexpected breach of peace.

have settled for blasting bsb(embarrassing, yes) on my ipod in attempt to block out whatever that can be blocked out. have never been a fan of blasting, unlike a lot of other people, but desperate times call for desperate measures. thought about going for a run (crazy) and i just might, later.

on a lighter note, i finished the pair of shorts i was working on, and it fits sister well enough. so its a tad loose on the waist, but she says she can live with it, dear girl. (have no intention of tearing it apart to alter it) (okay i might, if i get really annoyed with how it looks on her) pictures when i find my camera. which is probably not anytime soon. gah.

x

ps: i realised i have a lot of labels. many repetitive and just as many totally irrelevant and unuseful.

2009-10-23T13:29:00.001+08:00

things with eyes

2009-10-23T04:50:00.003+08:00

the 10 things i hate about you series is awwwwsome,

how could i no-o-ot

2009-10-21T03:54:00.001+08:00

jsyk

2009-10-19T23:39:00.004+08:00

had a pretty okay day

finished a book
got another pair of shoes
went to the library
got a load of books
finished another book
did some pretty substantial writing
did more writings while waiting for e
had dinner with e

so not a bad day in all, although i didnt get any sewing or cutting done, but maybe later if i feel like it. have been doing a good lot of writing the past few days, which is good. havent being writing for a long time. can't wait for november, although im not sure if i can keep up! i guess i should dedicate the rest of this month to sewing, then november can be for the writings. have banned self from chinatown until i have used a substantial lot of the fabrics from the last trip. scarf is stalled indefinitely, most irritating.

2009-10-18T16:55:00.001+08:00

such idiocracy.
i shall bang my head on the wall for always

2009-10-17T15:30:00.000+08:00

fluctuate too much

2009-10-17T15:14:00.002+08:00

Baby, it's fact
Our love is true
The way black is black
And blue is as blue
My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that

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2009-10-17T14:02:00.000+08:00

i know im being crazy when im being crazy
and right now i know im being crazy
but dont tell

2009-10-17T13:49:00.007+08:00

someone i will never dream of, but someone i will always think of.
i think of him even in my dreams but have never dreamt of him.
i laugh and get all excited when i talk about him, but i would never ever admit to liking him.
(even my mom hopes i will marry someone like him, or better yet, him. ha! will never admit to agreeing with that!)

but then i guess i do.