Im staring unaware cause Im in the zone It moves in like a fog on a seaside road Paralyzed by the signs and the deafening tone Im on a lock like a jock with a broken bone I can see the real game and I want to get in it I can read your headline and I am dying to spin it Man down in the clutches of his own desire I got to find the kind of speed that will put out a fire I need a getaway car, I gotta get out of here fast and far I need a getaway car, I wanna flea what I see, wanna be where you are I need a getaway car, I gotta get out of here fast and far I need a getaway car I put my hand on the wheel before I change my mind I put my foot to the floor and I start to fly I keep my eyes on the road so I dont get spun around To the nightmare Ive been delivered from Its a brand new day, I drove hard all night I thank God for the sun as it starts to rise I take a peek in the mirror and my past is gone Im feelin free as a bird with a new song Now I aint gonna stop til I find your peace I gotta get to the place where its you and me So fill her up now, and lets roll Gonna drive through the night til you touch my soul Said I aint gonna stop til I find your peace I gotta get to the place where youre all I need So fill her up, lets roll Im gonna drive through the night till you touch my soul Lets ride all night, lets shift this thing into overdrive and the air smells of crisp apple cider; sigh. sucks lahh. gta wake up so early. then i gta sneezing fit and keep sneezing. ): argh. dnt. sigh. later still got english. nothing much to say. ytd parade rehersal was okay. im doing frontwalk. the way we choreographed it is damn cool! :D ohyeah. later going ikea and ps? i think so (: <3 and the air smells of crisp apple cider; hahahah. went for family gathering just now. my daddys side. cos his 2nd brother came back from australia for holiday. but my dads in south africa now. and yeah, my uncle lives in australia. my aunt is australian and my cousin also. just that ive nv seen my cousin before. at least not that i can rmb. was fun lahh the gathering. for the frirst time in my wholewhole entire life im saying that a family gathering was fun. i usually just hate it. even chinese new year(except getting hongbaos that is). today i sat arnd and talked with yaozhong and daniel and my aussie auntie(lol). yaozhong was from phs. before carolin tan was here. daniel is in whitley. i just sorta found out. like since i was young i was always closer to them somehow but i never rly talked to them for long. im not rly close to yaozhong's brother lahh. i cant even rmb his name. lol. sorry. hahaha. then one part yaozhong was talking to my aunt abt cpf and all then daniel was like "if you dont understand, like me, then just listen and nodd your head. like pretend to understand." then i started laughing lahh then yaozhong come and ask me why i was laughing. i just said that cos i didnt understand what he was saying. then he just gimme that kinda look. lol. but i think i rly bonded with daniel cos after that we talked for a long time. abt sch and stuff lahh. i suddenly realised that ive gta lotta nieces and nephews. hhaha. like suddenly all my cousins like giving birth and all. then i got this niece kexuan she rly cute lahh. but so sad her mom divorced my cousin. \: like ohman. sad for her lahh. shes so innocent. anw i think i wont hate family gatherings so much anymore. since i got someone to talk to now. LOL. <3 and the air smells of crisp apple cider; things i have learnt from eugene: (abit crap lahh but anw) 1)its not good to hate (I TOTALLY AGREE SEE WHAT IT GOT ME INTO) 2)its just not good to hate (okay sorry this one is crap :\ ) 3)boys are human 4)boys can cry 5)boys will cry 6)boys do actually cry okay. it is all true. just that you know, as such stereotypical people we always think that boys dont cry, at least not in public or NOT AT ALL. honestly, conciously or subconciously thats the idea that everyone has. most of the time. either that or it is somehow politically incorrect for a boy to be seen crying in public. that used to be my thinking too, subconciously though, cos i never rly thought about it. it is weird isnt it? to think boys dont cry. (esp after seeing lewis chew cry so many times) perhaps this world is just.. too stereotyped? o.0 nvm. anw shauny and i are now bestestestest friends(or maybe bester than that i dno). (: and we and his boyfriend are the evil 3 friends(???). IM NOT EVIL; THEY ARE. they set me up to do THAT lahh it is not my fault. RARH. but anw it just proves imma bad actress cos i almost put all our lives in jeopardy. NO MORE ACTING FOR ME >.< and i have broken up with greg alr cos it is too much stress. he keeps getting jealous of shauny. o.0 even shaun john is not happy with shauny now. lol. and since daddy likes my pig so much i decided to get him one. but then i couldnt find it so in the end i bought him the orange thingy like mommy's one. o.0 hope she doesnt get angry lol. i shall buy daddy a pig when i see one. (: went out for lunch with minyen scaaa and jiyeon. and charles and shauny and shauny's bf/ex.bf mengchao. nth much lahh. just that shauny and bf/ex.bf are lamelamelame. 2/3s of the evil 3 friends. nth alr. shall change my url and blogskin. lol. <3 and the air smells of crisp apple cider; AND FRANCE LOST TO ITALIA!!!! i was like freaking OMGF. that is SO CRAP. okay nvm. then slept at like 4:30AM like that? managed to wake up at 6:30 amazingly. reached the mrt like 6:55. wasnt tired during lesson at all. (ANOTHER MIRACLE) except chinese i was kinda getting abit sleepy. lol. gym meeting i slept through half the time when mrs soh was talking. was so tired lahh? after that quickly went home to sleep. like around 5 slept until 11. and now i s 1 lahh and im tired alr. and ive not done my damnit history proj. DARNDARNDARN. okay. so this is the after effects of world cup. momy and daddy are coming home tmr. i dn wna go sch tmr. i wna stay and slp and slp and slp and then after that mommy and daddy will be home. (: what a nice idea. just that mommy and daddy would so totally kill me for it lahh. cos i was the one who wanted to watch world cup. gloria didnt go sch today. >:( i felt like scolding her lahh cos she didnt even tell mommy and daddy? and she only said she was COUGHING. what shiat. she didnt even watch world cup and shes in the afternoon session for goodness sake! AND she doenst have any parents approval (or valid reason) so this is like truancy! like OMG cant you see that??? okay, so she obviously cant. i rly cant believe her lahh. couldnt she just wait for like tmr when mommy and daddy are back?? i miss mommy and daddy so much lahh. and they are buying chocolate for me!!! chocolate from france is do damn nice. (: i dont believe anymore. i've let go. or maybe i haven't. i dont know. and the air smells of crisp apple cider; like rly rly weird. in pw i was okay. just read my news paper. then science at the lab. was okay too. but like i was abit hyper. not that i was hyper just that i wanted to scream but i couldnt. got that weird feeling to scream. thn recess. was okay. then..... ahhhhhhh history. was so boring lahh. so i started to write. in my foolscap(spell?). then like i started writing abt how i feel. sigh. that was so totally bad. like not good? then i suddenly just broke down. i tried to hold back but i couldnt. this time i rly couldnt. i guess its too much to take. i dn cry in front of ppl. i promised myself i wouldnt. cos it just isnt right. the last time i cried in front of ppl was the gym comp. but that was still okay. sigh. but luckily i got over it quite fast. but was sad for the rest of the lesson. and afraid i would break down again. but i managed to hold out. after that ppl kept asking me why i was so gloomy. i couldnt tell them. it would just sound so stupid. i guess its just too much for me. in life u just gta fake a smile and walk on. nobodys gna be there to wait for you. you gta continue your journey with even though you're so alone inside. rather than carry it on alone. but i just wna run away. cant take the pressure anymore. i gta get away from this place. i cant feel myself. what is happening to me? tell me im not slipping into oblivion. tell me im not dying. is it really me out there? or is it just the mask i wear on my face. <3 and the air smells of crisp apple cider; |
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