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okay a (hopefully) long post, to make up for my laptop-less induced hiatus.

i hate typing on the keyboard. it sucks. it feels terrible. i hate this, but i have to write this now or i'll forget. im forgetting a lot of it already.

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so last night i had a dream, i wouldnt call it a nightmare, but it was kind of a bad dream. i was getting married(!). okay so that's not really !-inducing, but this is - i was still 17(!), so basically i was getting married like, now. and it was really weird, i only remember snatches of it now, like it is with all dreams. i remember who i was getting married to, which was REALLY weird. i won't say who it was, because he's someone i barely know who happens to be happily just married. okay actually i dont know him at all i just know who he is and i know someone who knows him. so thats terribly weird, dreaming of getting married to a stranger who is also probably way older than me. and what i know is, in the dream, the wedding (not a huge deal, and no ceremony) went true, so we DID get married. i remember being really scared and shaking, and wondering why i was marrying him. somehow (in the dream) i didnt know him that well either, although i was marrying him. no idea why i was getting married to him anyway. and somewhere along the way i remember thinking, "what about _____ ____? if i have to get married i should at least marry _____ ____ then!" and more thoughts along the same line, with regards to _____ ____. unfortunately those thoughts were not really dreamt up, because if i were really in such a weird situation, i would think exactly that. so, haha, good luck guessing who it is. also, kayla and ck were back and i was ecstatic. tianwei was there and i told her i liked her shoes (random much?), abiho was there and she omg-ed over tianwei's shoes too.

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so weird dream altogether. i still cannot get why i was getting married to who i was getting married too, and at 17(like, now). it is just way too weird. and tianwei being in the dream was really random too.

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but of course, if i had to choose someone to get married to right now at 17, i would choose abovementioned _____ ____, and
if kayla and ck were to come back tomorrow, i would be ecstatic. so that much is true.

and the air smells of crisp apple cider;