then again it doesnt hit you like a sharp thud, more like in slow motion, which is also how you crumble and fall, slowly, and the thud of your body on the pavement seems blunt, a soft crumple even. nonetheless, realisation has hit, and you feel it all the same.
you stare at her photo - it could be anyone, anyone - and wonder, how, how ever someone years older than you can act years younger than you (or is it just that you dont act or feel your age anymore?). how someone can be so carefree, so innocent, though she has years over you, when all you feel is weighed down by life in itself. tired and weary.
sure, you have your brief moments of respite, carefree shrieking, screaming, prancing about. but it never lasts all that long, because deep down inside you feel it, weighing you down, not letting you go. like how all the material possesions of the world will never satisfy you, something many know but fewer yet understand. and it is something you have come to understand, which scares you, but does not blunt the cravings anyhow.
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then the phone rings, loud and equally irritating, and you are shaken out of your reverie. back to the world, you sigh.
Labels: random musings
and the air smells of crisp apple cider;
- me, today.
hit the ground running
(accurate as at time of publication)
hit the ground running
hit the ground running
what have we here?
hit the ground running
has a pink polaroid and no film
wanted a pink holga because it was, well, pink
believes in non-committalism(i think)(but not really)
is still as anti as ever (that's end-without-the-d, tie)
starbucks' hot chocolate is pretty good
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