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i am worried

but not about the things i should be

and definitely not about the things that i really should be

but anyway

im worried about our relationship because ever since i met him there hasnt been a day where i went home with him

which basically means we havent had a proper conversation since the day i was formally introduced to him which is quite bad because he is a new addition, as we shall call it,

and, well, we havent discussed him. and, when we do have a conversation, its mostly around other people, or at best its only the three of us, which obviously include him, so

we havent really discussed him. which somehow i find is something we need to. somehow. i mean its just weird that we really havent talked for very long and then he comes into the picture too which makes it even more complicated because now im talking to him more than i am to you.

but okay, he's cool and all but it doesnt really work, however you look at it and you know and i know and he doesnt think anything of it anyway.

okay im talking cotton ballses, doesnt make any sense.

anyway, yesterday d said something really weird, like i never thought about it that way and i dont really think that is but somehow(from his point of view) it makes sense. kinda, considering that his views on the world and life are absolutely completely convolutely different from mine. i just laughed when he sed it, but well, idk what i think of it, really. i still dont. because theoretically it kiiiiiinda makes sense, but when you do the math in this situation, it just doesnt add up at all. complex.

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(okay shit my stomach's working up AGAIN. like, man, youve been at it the whole day, could you give me a break?! brb. x)

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on another note, its quite weird that it ISNT weird with _. and the weirdest thing it was that it wasnt really awkward even when, you know. and he was so cool about it (i was just laughing, as always). and it was really really fast, the whole thing.

okay, am mildly hungry. is bad.

Labels: musings, thoughts

and the air smells of crisp apple cider;