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grace
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leave

i decided i want to do something

* is fun. i am enjoying it incredibly and i dont mind too much that i spend ALL my time on it. i look forward to it every day, something that has not happened for anything in a long time. maybe i have found what i want to do in life although it isnt what i've always wanted, but my perspectives are changing.

i like * a whole lot and talking to him made me change my perspective, made me see things differently. he made me rethink my ideals in life and now i feel differently about many things. and i am closer to him i guess.

things change quickly and i feel as if i am a part of it already, and it is a part of me. i dont think i'll be going anywhere any time soon because it is all so wonderful. chemistry, and so i like you more already, some how we click better then the others, so it is the chemistry (:

suddenly i want to do more, get more out of my time, my life. i actually want to be a better person (that sounds so weird like omg grace is taking herself too seriously!!! and SO cliche, and so ewwargh, but i actually have that feeling okay!). so weird dang. i actually want to be.

i am changing in such weird ways ]:

i hate tacking, but when i think of * i can imagine what he'd say to me which would make an awful lot of sense so i cannot argue, and i sigh and i resign to the fact that i have to tack tack tack and not complain.

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the other day that guy smiled at me. today i realised he was from the shop right next door. and today i also realised that the shop was selling watches. yeah, i never realised. now he smiles at me all the time when i see him. i like him a whole lotalready, i like most people a whole lot. but then of course there are the occasional weirdly omgifeellikesplashingwateratyouandshouting'wakeup!' kind of people (which are just ugh, such as kl and dh LOLOL). i just laugh at them though, cos they're so cocky its ridunkulus, and obviously i cannot splash water at them, although i alwaysss have the urge to.

oh and i finally realised which was the crf, i always thought it was a clock shop T.T but i still dont know who's the girl i really wonder

today i had my lunch outdoors which was lovely and i should cam more again

my contacts are so dry they are going to jump out of my eyes any moment. i just realised that i should really change them, but what the heck anyway.

i like how you always sing and hum and whistle. one day i will too.

Labels: abstract, random musings, random weirdness, so much noise

and the air smells of crisp apple cider;